Westley never dies.

So..
I just finished reading The Princess Bride, a thoroughly enjoyable book for all ages. I loved the movie as a kid and now I want to see it again. I remember in about Grade 5 for a time I walked around saying "Hello. My name is something something, you killed my father, prepare to die" and then "Stop saying that!" over and over. I didn't remember Inigo Montoya's name, shame on me.
Tomorrow I leave for Canberra early in the morning, so I have to pack ASAP.
Camelgirl's given me a new tag that she's made herself. You have to 'introduce/describe yourself' and tag three people. Okay let's see how I go.

Hello my name is Jokerman. I'm not telling you my real name because then it's not very mysterious is it? Not that most of you don't know it anyway but let me have my fun. I can start learning to drive in two months, which makes me sad because it means I'm really not a kid anymore. I go to Melbourne High - you know the nerd school - even though I'm a massive slacker and procrastinator. I've loved reading for as long as I can remember. I wish I played an instrument and I love most kinds of music. I spend most of my pocket money on Slurpees and CD's - when I get pocket money. I play xbox and read manga to pass the time. I play basketball and though I'm the first or second tallest, I'm one of the worst. I love playing anyway. I started this blog because Camelgirl told me to, and now I love it.

Now I have to get packed. I tag this to Smorginator, Sabine aaaand Elfie.

I keep a sinister smile and a hole in my heart.

So..
Its holidays once again and I'm counting down to midnight. I do this every night so i can do some major downloading after 12 when it doesn't matter. I saw How To Train Your Dragon on Sunday and I highly recommend it. A very enjoyable film I intend to get on DVD. On Saturday we won basketball and I actually scored a goal! We only won by a point and the for the last minute no actual playing got done as there was confused fouls and stuff.
Today I watched Cop Out with a friend and his friend at Jam Factory, a cinema in South Yarra. An OK film, but not one I'd see again.
I have a new follower! The wonderful Erimentha has decided to join our ragtag crew. Welcome, come in, sit down, have a cracker. I'm almost at double figures now!
I've got a number of new songs I have/will download. Lets see now.Resistance by Muse, Heartkiller by HIM I finally got, Black Hearts (On Fire) by Jet, Holiday by Dizzee Rascal thanks to Camelgirl, Walking On A Dream by Empire Of The Sun and I managed to download Amy Meredith's song Pornstar.
I'm going to the Canberra Folk Festival over the weekend, I'll probably do another post from there.

Babe, I'll be a, flatliner for a, heartkiller.

So..
The lovely Sabine Cara has tagged me for her very own blogger tag. So here we go.
1 image that makes me cringe.
Very creepy.
Next, 2 images that I could stare at for 5 hours.
And..
Notice a baby theme yet? I found all these on weheartit and saved them to my computer, but I left the images open on a tab. Every so often I'd accidentally click the wrong tab and go "aaaaaawwwwwww" babies are so cute. The second is kinda too cute. I can't stop wanting to look at it.
Finally, 1 image that shows a situation I want to be in before I die.
I kinda had a very specific image I wanted to put, but this is close enough. :D
I tag this to Camelgirl because I love every one of her posts, and catherine because I'm sure her answers would be awesome.

So Progress Report: I'm missing you to death

So..
One of my favourite Fall Out boy songs is I Slept With Someone In Fall Out Boy And All I Got Was This Stupid Song Written About Me.
The best bit is the opening lines and the verses. You kinda have to listen to it to know why its good.

I found the cure to growing older
And you're the only place that feels like home
Just so you know, you'll never know
And some secrets weren't meant to be told
But I found the cure to growing older

I'm the first kid to write of hearts, lies, and friends
And I am sorry my conscience called in sick again
And I've got arrogance down to a science
Oh, and I'm the first kid to write of hearts, lies, and friends

Douse yourself in cheap perfume it's
So fitting, so fitting of the way you are
You can't cover it up
Can't cover it up

Douse yourself in cheap perfume it's
So fitting, so fitting of the way you are
You can't cover it up
Can't cover it up

Find a safe place, brace yourself, bite your lips
I'm sending your fingernails and empty bottles you've sipped
Back to your family cause I know you will be missed
So you can find a safe place, brace yourself

They call kids like us vicious and carved out of stone
But for what we've become, we just feel more alone
Always weigh what I've got against what I left
So progress report: I am missing you to death

Douse yourself in cheap perfume it's
So fitting, so fitting of the way you are
You can't cover it up
Can't cover it up

Douse yourself in cheap perfume it's
So fitting, so fitting of the way you are
You can't cover it up
Can't cover it up

Someone old
No one new
Feeling borrowed
Always blue
Someone old
No one new
Feeling borrowed
Always blue
Someone old
No one new
Feeling borrowed
Always blue
Someone old
No one new
Always borrowed
Always you

I found a cure to growing older
I found a cure to growing older

Douse yourself in cheap perfume it's
So fitting, so fitting of the way you are
You can't cover it up
Can't cover it up

Douse yourself in cheap perfume it's
So fitting, so fitting of the way you are
You can't cover it up
Can't cover it up

I've seen many a face, from young and to old.

So..
I'm listening to Speak Of The Devil by Sum 41. One of my favourite songs by them.
The Cassie Tag!!!

I like boys who can still act like a child and girls who like the same music I do.

I like signing in to MSN at 8 am on the weekend and being the only one there.

I like going to sleep with a smile on my face.

I like reading stories with happy endings.

I like sleeping in.

I like finding a new book that I can't stop reading.

I like my unhealthy disrespect for authority.
I like having conversations about nothing.

I like daydreaming.

I like sketching and drawing in the middle of class.

I like listening to the rain on the roof, or walking through a light drizzle

I love spending ages on weheartit saving images i like to my computer

Today I'm going to win basketball and see a movie

In some ways, I love everything.

Its less, its less of a thing to like, its less distinct, its less particular.

I like things that I like but I love everything.

There’s more choice in like.

'Cause even the worst things have things you love in them.

I don’t know what you mean about things I hate.

I hate being told I can't, I'm not good enough.

I hate being reminded of my failings.

I hate how people always remember the embarrassing things I've done, and never the good ones.

I hate lying in bed, unable to daydream myself to sleep because I was reminded of the truth.

I hate having crap days at school, and then coming home and having to do homework.

I hate how I'm not enough for anyone but in a way I know I wouldn't change myself if I could.

I hate seeing old friendships die.

I hate seeing a guy and a girl walking down the street holding hands, because when I do, my heart breaks a little more.

I hate this, wow...

Sorry.

If I was a villain, then I would steal your heart

So..
Tag numero uno.
In ten years I will:
-be able to drive
-be in university (or past it)
-be 25 and ten months-still love metal
-have found love
-have a job
-have left home a long time ago
-come back to this post and ask myself if I made it where I said I would.

Gimme fuel, gimme fire, gimme that which I desire.

So..
I have two tags from Camelgirl to complete, which should be fun. But first, yesterday I had house Chorals! Basically, the whole school went to the Town Hall in the CBD and sang to try and get points for their house. Every house had to sing My Country as well as a song of their own choice. My house sang Go The Distance from the Disney movie Hercules. We came last :(. There was also instrumentals, where each house had two soloists and an ensemble. We won the instrumentals:D. After school I went and ate pizza and watched silly people dance in public.
I've downloaded Fuel by Metallica which is very good song, and I'm trying to download I Wanna by The All American Rejects, with little success. I'm also trying to get Flashback by Calvin Harris.

Just maybe, we could take the long way home.

So..
On the weekend, I got sick on Saturday night and was worse in the morning. I was almost fine at 430 so I went out and had pizza :D. When I got home I got worse again though and missed school on Monday :(. Yesterday I went to school and did my usual slacking off.
Today I had 'garbo', where basically me and another kid went to school in casual clothes and did emptied bins and helped at the canteen etc. All the Year 10s have to do it. I didn't mind it much especially since we got free food from the canteen after and I finished slightly early.
I found some new songs I need to get and have got. Something With Numbers has a song called Stay With Me Bright Eyes I like, The Sundance Kids have a great song called Drive Away and Miami Horror's song Sometimes is pretty catchy. I love Wish We Were Older by Metro Station and Kid Cudi's Persuit Of Happiness is fun to listen to.
Today a friend showed how much I meant to him. Thank you friend.

Now in Vienna, there's ten, pretty women.

So..
You know that thing where you overhear someone say something, and you hope its about you, or you hope it's not about you, and you don't want to ask for some reason, and you agonise over it for ages? Yeah, I hate that thing.

You control my emotions so completely. Everything you say and don't say, do and don't do, changes my outlook completely. I hate that fact when it makes me sad. I love it when it makes me happy. I hate that it makes me sad more often than it makes me happy.



It's late. This is what happens when I post when its late. You get depressed posts. Goodnight. Sweet dreams.

SWILAYIWTSFYUB

So..
Hands up if you've heard of the Gorillaz! one, two, three, four, five, five, six.. that can't be right. You're lying. The Gorillaz are a 'virtual band'- a band with fictional members, whose voices and sounds are provided by its creators and various others.
Gorillaz are really interesting. The creator made up a biography for them, and personalities etc.
Its made up of vocalist 2D, band leader ad bass Muroc, guitarist Noodle and drums Russel. They have three albums and a number of singles. They can even 'perform' live through holograms, which I think is really cool, but because its difficult to organise they've only done it a few times.
Anyway, I found out about them through the video for 'Stylo' and then I recognised the song 'Feel Good INC', which I liked immediately.Left to right: Russel, Noodle, 2D, Muroc. Picture curtesy of Wikipedia.
I started writing an acrostic poem, but ended up making a random one. It's called either Sometimes or Beauty. Tell me which it should be.

Sometimes, there are nights,

When I feel scared so,

I leave on the lights.

Look at the stars outside,

At how they boldly shine,

You can see the same, worldwide.

I would like to run away

Want to come with me?

To a place where we can play.

Scream out for some warm shelter,

From the storm that’s all around.

Your words won’t make a sound.

Unbearable is life, but everywhere,

Beauty can be found.

It's rather strange no?

We won basketball today! I'm very pleased. We won 23 to 9, which is brilliant. I played quite well though as always I wish I had more court time.

'Friends' loyalty lasts longer than their memories'

So..
I've got this one song line stuck in my head, but the annoying thing is I only have half of it. It goes ' blessed by the something something' it could even be opressed or raised by the something something. It's very annoying because I'm sure I liked the song when I heard it.

Fun Fact: 100% of 17 year olds who marry other 17 year olds get divorced. According to one of my teachers anyway.

A man is walking down the street with a dolphin in his ear.
Another man walks up to him and says"What the hell? Why do you have a dolphin in your ear."
The man replies "Sorry I can't hear you, I have a dolphin in my ear."

I'm fifteen, what do I know about love?

I found two new songs today on my friend's iPod. 'For Whom The Bell Tolls' and 'Some Kind Of Monster'. Both are by Metallica, the first heavy metal band I listened to.

I just found the song! It's called 'I Am The Summertime'. I heard it in American Pie.:) It doesn't have any lines similiar to what I thought, but meh. I don't mind.

And that ain't what you want to hear/ But thats what I'll do

I found a good song today. It's called Seven Nation Army and It's by the White Stripes. The guitar riff is really good, though the video is kinda dull and the lyrics aren't the best.




So cute!
Otherwise known as SSDD

Three little birdies went down to the shore

So..

Put me back together,
Or seperate the skin from bone.
Leave me all the pieces,
The you can leave me alone,
Tell me the reality is better than the dream,
Caues I found out the hard way
Nothing is what it seems!

Hmm. I forgot to say, I read An Abundance Of Katherines a little while ago. It's probably my favourite of John Green's books as it has a much lighter tone than his other books.
I borrowed Catch-22 and another book from the library today. I brought Catch-22 home, but left the other one behind. I had a good day today. I didn't get in trouble like I thought I would for not doing my homework (again). My favourite was the last two periods where I had drawing. I spoen half the lesson just deciding what picture to draw, then printed off a biohazard symbol to sketch. I've done most of it, so it shouldn't take too long to finish in the next lesson.
So all up I'm feeling pretty good.
I've been reading a manga calleed Kaikan Phrase. It's absolutely disgusting honestly, but I can't stop reading it. Basically, a high school girl meets a famous popstar, they fall in love and she becomes hhis band's lyricist. Its a type of manga called shojo, which is intended for girls below the age of about 20. It unabashedly outlines the perfct relationship, and is completely unrealistic. So yeah. Absolutely horrible and I can't stop. I'm so sad sometimes.
Hmm. That's enough I think.

I've come to talk with you again.

So..
It's been a while since I've posted. I kept meaning to, but I couldn't be bothered getting around to it. I just finished watching American Pie, which I found quite silly, but a lot of fun. If you don't know the plot, basically four guys make a 'pact' to get laid on prom night. Their misadventures in getting there are quite funny to watch - for me anyway.
I'm typing on my new laptop, which is already kinda screwed up because I forced it to shut down in the middle of installing updates. I'm kinda hoping it'll fix itself. It's been raining a lot, as you might have noticed, which is kinda comforting for me. I like rain.On Friday night I went to CG's house and went to sleep around 5. Yesterday I went to the birthday party of this old family friend. He turned 50 and had a small get together. We ate at this Thai place in Laverton, the food was some of the best I've had in a long time. Today I went to have dinner at the house of an acquaintance from primary school named Thomas. Neither of us like each other, but his dad is our finance manager, and my dad plays golf with him, plus his mum and mine are friends and his little brother isn't too bad. Thomas wasn't there but everyone else was so it wasn't too bad.
I found a new song curtesy of American Pie - One Week by Barenaked Ladies.

How can I help it if I think you're funny when you're mad,
Trying hard not to smile though I feel bad.
I'm the kind of guy who laughs at a funeral,
Can't understand what I mean?
Well, you soon will.
I have a tendency to wear my mind on my sleeve,
I have a history of taking off my shirt.

And now for some reason my post is stuck in italics. Stupid HTML.
I was going to write a song by the way, but I forgot it before I could write it down. I can still sorta remember the words but I can't get the tune. If I finish it it'll go up here naturally.
Umm. I've got lotsa homework I gotta do. :(
I also have to write a story for a competition. I mostly know what I want to write, but it's too much of a bother.
I'm feeling pretty good lately, as I've figured out somethings that had been bothering me. So yeah... happy face.
Now let's hope I can post this without blogger or my computer getting annoyed with me.
Also, for some reason my download has been massively used up again. I don't get it, it must be the new computer downloads and stuff.

Hello darkness my old friend,

So..
I've just spent about 2 hours on weheartit,( listening to Simon & Garfunkel) like i said I would, just going through picture after picture with the 'text' tag. I always look at that one because I find it more interesting to read what people have written, what they've decided to put out onto the website, as a declaration of who they are, or how they feel, or what they think. scanning and reading through the hundreds of quotes, comments and ideals gives me a weird feeling. Because love is a primary theme, I unconsciously match every comment to myself. I'm going to save my favourites, a number of which you may never see simply because.. I said so.:D. Here's some good ones though.Best story ever.

Really sorry. I can't help it.

:D


Do you?
Awesome optical illusion.
Reason #1 I like small children: they understand things. #2: My mind works the same way
#3: I have the same mental age as them sometimes #4: They accept people and ideas so easily.

End of post

Bam Balam.

So..
Oh my god I can't beleive it, (I've never been this far away from home) I've got a new follower. Numero 8. Its pretty surprising.

Woah Black Betty!
Bam balam.
Yeah Black Betty!
Bam balam.
Black Betty had a child,
Bam balam,
The damn thing gone wild,
Bam balam,
She always ready
Bam balam,
she's ohh, rock steady,
Bam balam.

I downloaded Black Betty (finally) now that my internet's working again (finally).
Umm. I had Athletics at school today and will have it again on Thursday. I'm not in anything, being slow and unathletic, but its a good excuse to miss most of two days of school.
So I'm all good, now someone else post so I can read something!
I'm going to find pictures on weheartit.

Withdrawal

I need my drug.

Philosophy?

The following was on the last page of one of my philosophy handouts.

CAPITALISM

You have two cows. You sell one and buy a bull.

FASCISM

You have two cows. the government takes both, hires you to take care of them and sells you the milk.

PURE COMMUNISM

You have two cows. Your neighbours help you take care of them and you all share the milk.

RUSSIAN COMMUNISM

You have two cows. You have to take care of them but the government takes all the milk.

DICTATORSHIP

You have two cows. The government takes both and shoots you.

SINGAPOREAN DEMOCRACY

You have two cows. The government fines you for keeping two unlicensed animals in an apartment.

MILITARISM

You have two cows. The government takes both and drafts you.

PURE DEMOCRACY

You have two cows. Your neighbours decide who gets the milk.

REPRESENTATIVE DEMOCRACY

You have two cows. Your neighbours pick someone to tell you who gets the milk.

AMERICAN DEMOCRACY

The government promises to give you two cows if you vote for it. After the election, the president is impeached for speculating in cow futures. The press dubs the affair "Cowgate".

BRITISH DEMOCRACY

You have two cows. You feed them sheep brains and they go mad. The government doesn't do anything.

BUREAUCRACY

You have two cows. At first the government regulates what you can feed them and when you can milk them. Then it pays you not to milk them. After that it takes both, shoots one, milks the other and pours the milk down the drain. Then it requires you to fill out forms to account for the missing cows.

SURREALISM

You have two giraffes. The government requires you to take harmonica lessons.

After reading the last one I spent five minutes in class laughing uncontrollably while everyone gave me funny looks and the teacher pretended not to notice.

And pictures..

I NEED this USB.

It's true.

It's funny that you mentioned creative writing..

So..
I had a sub for science and no book to read so I wrote a poem

Leave blue roses on my grave,

In memory of the one you couldn't save.

In the corner,of a lost and secret cave,

Leave blue roses on my grave.

Remember me as `was the one.'

Remember me as `next to none.'

Remember me as `we're not done.'

Remeber me as `was the one.'

Forget me on your wedding night,

Forget about knowing who was right,

Love the one who holds you tight,

And forget me on your wedding night.

I'm not totally happy with it, but it's good enough.

Hope you liked it.

First, we take Manhattan / Then, we take Berlin

So..
Finally. I've been wanting to post for ages. The reason I couldn't is because my download limit was almost gone, and if we go over it gets sooo slooow. So I was waiting for the weekend when I could use the computer in the morning when the download doesn't count. Unfortunately, last night my dad used up the last of the download so now my computer is slooooooooooow. Very frustrating.
But anyway. First off, WELCOME MY TWO NEW FOLLOWERS! I have seven now. SEVEN. well, two are the same person but..SEVEN. I'm quite pleased as you can see.
We won basketball today. FINALLY. We've lost around 5 times in a row now. Last week was particularly frustrating. I didn't really enjoy it today though. I played really badly.
I started listening to Leonard Cohen (awesome 70+ Canadian singer) a few days ago. My parents have two albums of his, one is a bunch of covers and the other is his greatest hits sort of. My favourites right now are 'First We Take Manhattan' and 'Take This Waltz'. I also got recommended this awesome song called 'Who Says' by John Mayer (thanks Camelgirl).
I got Linkin Park's first album Hybrid Theory yesterday and I'm probably going to get Muse's new album tomorrow or next weekend. I want to get 'Oh My God' by Lily Allen and the Tik Tok Parody by The Midnight Beast. They're goood.
Yesterday I participated in the Red Cross Calling Appeal. Basically, every year on February 26 the whole of Year 10 has to stand on a street corner for two hours asking for donations.
The first hour and a half weren't that bad, but the last 30 minutes was excruciating. Afterwards I went with a friend to JB Hi Fi (where I got Hybrid Theory) then took the train home, had a surprise meeting with some kids from my old school, and went to the library with them. It was fun :).
I have a new computer! Because the old one died, my parents bought a new one two days ago. It's good, but kind of annoying to get used to. I'm also getting a new laptop, because my the one I've got now is around ten years old and is frankly a piece of shit (excuse my French).
I think I have some other stuff to say, but I forget. I'll post when I remember.
There's a friend of mine at school who keeps walking into class or comes back into a conversation with " It's OK everyone. I'm here.".. so yeah, bit of trivia for you.
Thanks to my two new followers.
More soon!

Come, sit down and warm your hands while my heart burns.

So..
I can't explain it properly. It was...well, I suppose being tickled is a good simile. It was extreme torment, but at the same time there was immense pleasure. It happened suddenly, and instead of laughing my, insides squirmed and rocked, and a voice in my head said, why not? But I knew why not, and the feeling faded, leaving behind a sweet tasting memory.

one thousand one hundred and forty seven steps.

So..
HI! Umm. You know what's good? Bad days that end well. You know whats better? Good days that go bad, but get good again. Today was like that. I woke up okay, then went to Camelgirl's house, so things got better, then I had to leave to play basketball and we played SO badly. I'm still quite angry.
We were playing against a team of five, who had no subs, and we led for around 95% of the game. We were up by about 7 at half time, then it was equal at around 3/4 time. We drew ahead again, but in literally the last minute they caught up and beat us by two points (1 goal = 2 points).
I was so furious, especially since I'd been subbed of in the last 2 minutes and couldn't do anything.
So when we left I got my dad to drop me off at a local park which had a crappy ring so I could cool off for a bit. I then walked home (I counted 1147 steps from a random point to the front door), had a shower and read my blog comments, which cheered me up. So now I'm feeling pretty good. Had a meat pie for dinner, and going to have an apple thing for dessert :).

On to other things. Sabine Cara asked if I'm gay. I'm not gay, though I have been called that many times by different people, mostly because I'm very touchy-feely with my mates. I don't object to being called gay though, as I don't find anything particularly wrong with being homosexual. There are two gay guys who live down the end of my street who are two of the nicest people I know.

Um..I had something else to say.. Oh. I don't use pictures very much because I don't usually go looking for them, but I will try to include them more often:D.
I foolishly attempted to draw the above picture for my drawing class. Needless to say, my version is terrible. I'm looking forward to next term though, because I have an idea of what my major piece is going to be and I can't wait to do it.

Umm.. there was one more thing.. Oh yeah. To any future people checking out my blog, I realise the first 8 or so are..well pretty depressing. Sorry about that. I'd change or delete them, but I don't like messing with previous posts. So yeah, just wanna let you know I'm not always that bad.


And here's the Looking For Alaska that started me off on my John Green craze.

Looking For Alaska

So..
I just realised I mentioned Looking For Alaska in my last post, but I haven't actually said anything about it before. Looking For Alaska is this awesome book I found out about when I found a quote from it on We Heart It. I didn't expect to find it in my school library, but it was, so I borrowed it.Its quite a sad story, but i really liked it.
My mum found my ring, so I'm got it on my little finger. Iss so pwetty. The We Heart It pictures I wanted to put up are on my normal computer, so i can't get to them because its broken. *tear*

Ride On.

So..
Much to talk about. I have a ring with a skull on it, being the emogoth I apparently am. The funny part is that my grandma gave it to me, which is not a typical grandparent to grandchild present as far as I'm aware. I was wearing it on my ring finger, but it was tight, hard to get off and doing weird things to the patch of skin under it. Now I've left it somewhere and I don't know where. Oh well. I borrowed this book called Paper Towns by the same guy who wrote Looking For Alaska - John Green. He's become my favourite writer, but he's only written three books so far *tear*. It was a good book. :D
I have a new follower (Sabine Cara) who will probably run away very quickly once she 1. finds out I only know a few Lily Allen songs 2. reads some more of my posts and 3. realises I'm mad. Och well.
I also got a tag from Camelgirl for Cassie's therapy video. Again :o .
I don't mind :D. I'm gonna do it again and see if any of my answers are the same as last time.
Now let's see..

Abracadabra, Wow!
I like boys with a sense of humour and big dreams and girls with big dreams and a sense of humour.
I like people who accept my weirdness as an essential part of me.
I like getting answers to tricky questions first.
I like reading doomed love stories. (John Green again[and Shakespeare])
I like staying up late at night, talking.
I liked how things used to be.

I like rearranging words to see if they spell anything else.

I like being needed.

I like doing silly things with my friends to pass the time.

I like it when I can think of things I like that aren't weird or depressing.:D

I like it when I truly believe I can reach my dreams.

I like the characters in stories are unconventional, but inspirational.
I love laughing simply because I can and there's a reason to.
Today I laughed uncontrollably because the teacher said 'Six', watched the Zefferelli version of Romeo and Juliet (the best PG film of all time), got the answer to a logic problem first, even though I wasn't even paying attention, I was reading then I looked up, found out what they were talking about and got the answer instantly.

In some ways, I love everything.
Its less, its less of a thing to like, its less distinct, its less particular
I like things that I like but I love everything
There’s more choice in like
Cos even the worst things have things you love in them
I don’t know what you mean about things I hate
I hate it when I wake up in the middle of a good dream.

I hate people who think there's something wrong with me, just because I'm unconventional.

I hate it when I don't understand what I did wrong.

I hate it when I get my hopes up, then see them crushed, or pushed aside.
I hate how growing up changes people, including me.
I hate that I'm losing my old friends, and I don't care enough to try.

I hate being alone but in a way, sometimes it can be useful.
I hate my cynical, nihilistic side
I hate this, wow. . .
Sorry.

Well now. This is called the act of - wait. Oops wrong place...
Hmm. What else is new? Oh, for almost all of yesterday I had the song Its Too Late by Evermore stuck in my head. It was good. It's actually a pretty sad song, but it kept me uplifted for some reason. I'm glad it did though.
I'm actually feeling quite good after writing that, which surprises me. Writing down what I'm thinking and feeling is a kind of release I suppose.
I also borrowed and read a book called The Jester by James Patterson and.. Someone Gross. As in, I borrowed it in the morning and read it through the day, and finished it a few minutes after I got home. I'm a fast reader.
Umm. OH! I know! I bought the Master Of Puppets album from a market person. It cost me 2 bucks and plays fine, though the cover is a bit old. I found a new song I like on it called Welcome Home (Sanitarium). The opening lines are very good.

Welcome to where time stands still,
Where no-one leaves and no-one will.

And later..

Sleep my friend and you will see,
The dream is my reality.

And the chorus..

Sanitarium.
Leave me be.
Sanitarium.
Just leave me alone.

Thats all for now. I post again soon though, I want to put up some weheartit stuff I found.