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Hi there. Sorry I haven't been posting but I was trying to think of things to do to commemorate my 100th post. So this is the 99th, and it's going to be pretty big.
First up, things that've been happening. Let's see, my last post was a week and a half ago so major things that have happened are: I had a day off last Friday and I was going to have a party but I had to cancel. Oh well. One friend did sleep over though and we just messed around on the computer mostly. On Saturday I went to the city with my friend and saw him off. I walked around the city for a bit longer then went home. We won basketball easily though I don't think I played very well. Saturday night I went and saw Jersey Boys! It was actually really good, way better than I expected. Sunday I rested from my big Saturday
Monday was the start of the new semester, so I will never again do Geography. my new subjects are history, game design and photography. Photography looks like it'll be fun, history could be good and game design will hopefully rock.
Nothing interesting happened until Thursday when I did a competition call Write-A-Book-In-A-Day. About ten guys including me basically hung out in the library all day in casual clothes eating crap food. We were given some characters and a setting and had to make a story. Then each of us wrote a chapter. I didn't get home til about six, but I had fun so I didn't mind.
Friday was last day of term. We finished at 1, got our reports and went to the city. I hung out with a few friends and got home at around when I would have on a normal day.
Yesterday I had basketball again, we lost horribly :( I finally organised my iTunes for my new iPod. I now have 1048 songs on it as well as 18 music videos. And a hell of a lot of videos.
I didn't go to bed until 4, stayed up talking to my girlfriend (:D) and downloading stuff.
This morning I got up at 1130ish and watched Gladiator. I have no idea why we own that movie. But it was good.

Now then, for my hundredth post, I thought I would do three things. Write a story I recently thought up called The Sea, do the tag Erimentha gave me and talk about my 5 favourite things and 'get my shit together', though probably not on the scale Eri did. But I'll clean up my room, alphabetize my books, organise stuff, be a busy little bee etc.

Finally, (for now) on the music front I have lots of new stuff.

Hello Fascination by Breathe Carolina.

Sons of Plunder by Disturbed which I started listening to recently.
Another Way To Die by Disturbed, off their new album.
Wolves Of The Sea by Alestorm.
Freak On A Leash by KoRn and it's freakish video.
Talk Like That by The Presets. The girl in the video is hot in a 'kill you in your sleep' kinda way.
The Death Of Love by Cradle Of Filth (freakin' awesome).
Blood Sugar by Pendulum. It's techno, but in a good way.
Keasby Nights by Streetlight Manifesto. I love the chorus.
If It's Love by Train. You've probably heard it, its been on the radio recently.
I'm Not Jesus and Helden by Apocalyptica. The first features the lead singer of Slipknot and it souds amazing. The second has the lead singer from Rammstein and it's a cover of David Bowie's song Heroes. In German. Because that's awesome.
If You Only Knew by Shinedown. Not a recent song, but a good one.
Drops Of Jupiter by Train. One of those songs you've heard, but never heard of.
Sayin' Goodbye To Hollywood by Eminem. Fun.
Fack by Eminem. Do NOT listen to it. Especially with your parents around. Or anyone else.
I'm Not Okay by My Chemical Romance.
Miss You by The Rolling Stones.
Rawkfist by Thousand Foot Krutch.
And a new artist for you, Halestorm. Sounds like Paramore, but heavier and wilder. I'll get their album next time I go out. Good songs by them are I Get Off and It's Not You.

I gotta go to the shops. More soon!

Oh yeah, almost forgot,

It's the holidays!

Symbols

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I really should be asleep right now but I really wanted to write this post. I've gotten less than seven hours sleep every night for almost a week when it should be nine. Did you know that? Nine hours at least for teens.
Anyway. Symbolism is..let's see.."The practice of representing things by means of symbols or of attributing symbolic meanings or significance to objects, events, or relationships."

Symbols and symbolism fascinate me and are a major part of my thinking. No one really knows this because I've been like this for so long that I don't even realise it. Symbols are somehow just important. Every part of language contains symbols and your name is a symbol representing you as an individual. Without your name there is no way to distinguish you specifically from a million people who look, talk and think like you. I have a shelf in my room where I keeps little bits and pieces I've picked up or bought or been given that all represent some memory. For example, there's a completely ordinary block of wood that brings up memories of going to the National Folk Festival last year. I have a dollar I will never spend because an old no-longer-a-friend once gave it to me on a whim and I wanted to remember them with it. Symbols permeate your lives, even once you disregard letters and numbers that represent sounds. Simple things like arrows telling you where to go and logos to represent your favourite brands. Looking at a key might evoke feelings of home,while a chain represents imprisonment. For me, weird things like the number seventeen represent randomness and independence. The heavy metal 'devil horns' for me means power over myself and control of my future. What do symbols mean for you?

No one else can see you, the same way as myself

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I haven't posted in a while, I'm sure you don't mind, ja? I'm just relaxing all the time, now exams are over. Next week we start a new semester, so tomorrow is my last day of Geography and Art. It feels a little strange. You get used to something for so long and then it's gone. I won't miss them or anything, I never cared about Geo and I can still draw and stuff after Art is finished. Next semester is Photography which should be interesting and GAME DESIGN! I'm so screwed for it but man I want to do well. We'll see. Sometimes it seems that all we're doing is waiting to see. See what's tomorrow, what's on the weekend, what's going to happen next. I hate waiting.
So my Philosophy teacher is the coolest guy you know. He dressed up in round glasses and a bowler hat and a mustache for Bloom day. Very interesting guy. My new favourite songs are:

Angel Witch by Angel Witch
Eighteen by Alice Cooper
We Are The Road Crew by Motorhead
Welcome To My Nightmare by Alice Cooper
Die For Metal by Manowar
Queen Of The Masquerade by Crimson Glory
and basically all of the album Captain Morgan's Revenge by Alestorm

Did you hear about the walruses? A number of oil companies were boasting about how much better they would have handles BHP's oil spill. One of them had an action plan consisting of 40 pages on dealing with the media and 9 on dealing with the spill. Another (or maybe the same one) had plans for dealing with any walruses that might be aound. Walruses haven't lived in the area for THREE MILLION YEARS! Complete bullshit Mr. Oil Company.
In cooler news, the plural of genius is genii. I think.

Chocolate.

Doctor Who is a gun

I'm going to watch the Gruen Transfer tonight. It should be fun.
Oh yeah. Did I tell you I got the game Brutal Legend? IT IS AWESOME!!! Basically you drive around a heavy metal filled world and kill baddies to a awesome metal soundtrack. Angel Witch, Road Crew and Queen are all on it, plus 104 more awesome songs.

Did I tell you I have a girlfriend? I have a girlfriend...Hehehe. I'm so screwed. But I'm not exactly going to complain am I?

Stream of consciousness.

We live on front porches and swing life away

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Sorry I haven't posted in a while. On the upside, IT'S MY BIRTHDAY! I am now sixteen. WOOT! What else is new. Quite a lot really. I'm going to start playing Warhammer, just to solidify my reputation as a mega nerd :D I have a bunch of new CDs: Riot by Paramore, Fallen by Evanescence and two from Rise Against, Siren Song Of The Counter Culture and The Sufferer & the Witness. All awesome songs. In particular I love Paramore's Let The Flames Begin and Born For This. and Rise Against's songs Swing Life Away, The Approaching Curve and Roadside.
I've made a new friend, I'm having a party with school friends...Oh and EXAMS ARE OVER. I'm pretty sure I passed them all and I expect a HD1 for my English (my school's equivalent to an A+. I own English) and I'm hoping I get one for my calculator-free maths test. Ummm. Yeah.
Good new songs:

Mousetrap Heart by Thirsty Merc
"When you take my car, and my money, I can't believe, you think this is funny."
(Don't Fear) The Reaper by Blue Oyster Cult
"Seasons don't fear the reaper. Nor do the wind, the sun or the rain."
My First Kiss by 30H3 and Kesha. (Yes I know it's terrible but I enjoy it.)
The Rock Show by Blink-182
"I fell in love with the girl at the rock show."
This Ain't A Love Song (This is Goodbye) by Scouting For Girls

Nightmare by Avenged Sevenfold (extremely awesome)
"It's your fucking nightmare"

Monster by Skillet (also very awesome)
"I must confess that I feel like a monster!"
Your Touch by The Black Keys (it's OK)

I saw Zombieland on DVD which is where I got two of those songs (figure out which and win a prize!....If I think of one)
Oh and I have a new follower. Can't believe I forgot. Opomon is an artist in New Jersey? That is so cool! Let's hope he likes us.






















P.S. I have a girlfriend
P.P.S. Didn't see that coming did you? :D

We sin while we're sleeping, our necks wrapped in sheeting.

Oh yeah, and its my birthday in a week and a half. Yay?
So..

If we're the flagship of peace and prosperity, we're taking on water and about to fucking sink.

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I have exams in two days so this is going to be my last post for a while. I'm sick (again) but its really bad because it means I'm not going to be in good condition for exams. Plus I haven't been revising like I should.

I feel so alone at times like this. Sleep is escape and I haven't been getting enough.
Sitting in my lounge room thinking of you and you and them and her and him and everyone I know and how they're happy and angry and sad and upset and how can you say miracles don't exist?

In other news, I bought a new CD. Siren Song Of The Counter Culture by Rise Against is amazing. But my mum hates it. Go figure.

I'm jealous of my friends because they're ready for exams. because they can actually focus and concentrate on the important things. Because I just found out one of my best mates is so much better than me at drawing and I thought I was good and now I know I'm not. I'm jealous of the lovers and the couples. I envy kisses behind sheds and holding hands in the corridors. I hate this jealousy.

Do you think of me anymore? I remember when all I wanted was for you to know I existed. Then I wanted you to be my friend. Then I just wanted to see you always. Then I wanted your friendship. Then I expected your love. Now I expect it again, but it's not any more realistic than it was before. I miss you. No screw that. I want you here. Any you. Don't forget me.

Everything seemed so simple when I was...five. Then it just got complicated.
So come and meet me after dark sometime and I swear you'll have fun.But how will you ever know?

So anyway. Forget my torment, I already am. Good luck on your exams if you have them. Get some sleep. Live your life free of complication.

The day I learn to fly, I'm never coming down

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Now, bring me that horizon

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Before I go to bed, two things. This is Desiderata by Max Ehrmann, written in 1952:

Desiderata

Go placidly amid the noise and haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible without surrender
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others,
even the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.

Avoid loud and aggressive persons,
they are vexations to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain and bitter;
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.

Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs;
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals;
and everywhere life is full of heroism.

Be yourself.
Especially, do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love;
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment
it is as perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.

You are a child of the universe,
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore be at peace with God,
whatever you conceive Him to be,
and whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul.

With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful.
Strive to be happy.

The other thing is, if you're bored and have seven minutes to kill, listen to Everybody's Free (To Wear Sunscreen) on Youtube. I reeaally like it.

"Me, I'm dishonest. And a dishonest man you can always trust to be dishonest—honestly! It's the honest ones you want to watch out for, because you can never predict when they're going to do something incredibly… stupid." Savvy?

"Gentlemen; m'lady. This is the day you will always remember as the day that you almost caught Captain Jack Sparrow!"

Johnny Depp is a brilliant pirate. Go and watch it now.

Today is a winding road that's taking me to places that I didn't want to go

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I have 20 followers!!! Is that amazing or what? The music-loving Gabrielle has seen fit to join our motley crew, so (non-alcoholic) drinks all round!
In response to all your comments on my last post: I agree with your comments Lilah. I don't really have any comeback and I don't think one is necessary. And thanks for the compliment. Thanks to Erimentha for your compliments too, though I'm far from the coolest guy :D
s.k.y...people smile in photos because it's expected, because they're meant to and sometimes, because they're happy. I love photos because people never take pictures of me.

So what else is new? Lots of stuff. Most of you are probably having exams soon like me, except you're studying instead of looking on blogger aren't you? I stil have homework, which is very bad, but hey tomorrow is Friday...I'm a good procrastinator dammit.

Alestorm is 'pirate metal' and freaking awesome. listen to the song Keelhauled if you like that kind of thing. which I would say you don't? perhaps Don't Take Your Love Away by Jon Crosby is more your thing.

I'm listening to A Thousand Miles by Vanessa Carlton over and over trying to remember the song lyric I was going to put as the title.

Do you like hugging? Hugging is awesome. I have said before I'm not gay, and I'm not, but I hug all my best mates at least once a day. And they let me because they know how weird I am like that. Of course hugging girls is completely different. I'm not good with the whole platonic-relationship-but-are-best-friends thing...yeah... Hugging is comforting, like just for a second everything is gonna be fine.

Umm.
Don't you love xkcd? mindless, yet intelligent humour.
I actually enjoyed The Hangover a lot, but I've been hearing a lot of negativity about it lately. Oh well.
But it didn't work. 5 times out of 5.
Do you have a happy place? I realised when I read this that I don't. There's no place in my head, real or imaginary that I can retreat to when the world is too much. No room in my house is sacred, no places to go outside. So, for now, I'm going to design the apartment I want to live in when I'm rich and happy. :)

Because sometimes you just couldn't care less. :)
And I think yours do too. But I can't see through the layers of meaning and I bet you don't even try to.
Some lines from Make Me Wanna Die by The Pretty Reckless. Pretty cool stuff.
Nothing new there. Just a new you.
I hope I am a friend like this. And I hope I get one.
Because it wasn't immediately obvious.
I think this is very clever. And true. And sad.
because no matter how fucked up things are, there is always cake.

I'm so so so so tired. Mentally and physically. Have a great weekend.

A silver chain held up by God's grace.

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I have two yes two new followers. The deep s.k.y. and as-yet mysterious Lilah have joined the party. Hope you enjoy yourselves :D
So I had a good day. A maths test I aced, some other fun and shit subjects, pizza after school, library games and then home.
I actually have interesting things to say today. First, please please please pleeeaassse go here and click 'play' on the right to listen to the song. If you really like rate it highly, though you have to make an account so I understand if you're reluctant. Anyway, I think they're awesome and I want you to love them too.
My mum is once again trying to take things out f my room and give them to op shops while I try to stop her. Before she gave up she asked me to go through an old photo album and take the pictures out. It was full of pictures detailing the years between when I was born and when I was five. It was very strange watching myself grow up with each turning page. I enjoyed it though.Uncomplicated, happy, carefree.
Photos are our best link to the past I think. Memories can fade or be twisted, but a photograph can't ignite a whole host of pictures, sounds and smells you thought you'd forgotten. I take far too few photos.

I still remember when all I thought you were eating was my pride.

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I'm pretty dumb. I'm feeling a slight chill because I haven't put the heater on, I have a FUCKLOAD of homework I should be doing and you know what? I'm happy. I'm freakin' happy.
I just finished a book called Boy Toy, which is written by the same guy who wrote The Astonishing Adventures Of Fanboy and Goth Girl. It was alright, had a very good ending. I also read a book called..uhh.. I can't remember right now. But it was good. I'm wearing my new contacts and I reckon I might stay up late and do homework.
I'd like to welcome my two new followers, Belle and u.zu.maki. You're both obviously awesome, especially as you brought my follower count up to 17. Which is of course the awesomest number in the universe.

I figured out a temporary solution to a math problem I was working on (You can skip the next paragraph if you like, algebra and basic math). I was trying to figure out an equation for the number of possible rearrangements an x number of lettered word can have. a one letter word has one possible arrangement (I) a two letter two rearrangements (at,ta) a three letter word has six (two,wot,tow,wto,owt,otw) and so on. The half-solution is the number of possible rearrangements is the number of letters times the number of arrangements for the previous number of letters (1 x 2 =2, 2 x 3 = 6, 6 x 4 = 24). This isn't a proper answer though because it means you have to know the number of possible rearrangements for a letter count of one less than the word you want. But enough algebra.

I wish I had a picture to put up, but I don't think so. I'll look later. I kinda need one to segue into something annoyingly cryptic about love, life etc.


EDIT: Found pictures.
Listen to the world and know that in this moment, just for a bit, you are indestructible.
I love growing up sometimes. (click to see it better)
Wait no, that a loss too. How about a nice game of chess?


So what if I turn around and you're right there? And if you aren't? What if someone else is? What then?

She's mine until the end, you know what she is, no doubt about it she's a bad,bad girlfriend.

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Hi y'all. We won the basketball grand final today. Don't worry about congratulations, we're D Grade. We really shoulda been C Grade but if we had been we would have come, like 5th. So yeah, basically we suck. Or I suck and other people can't make up for my shitness. Or not.
So I have lots of homework to do and various other sucky things are happening. We have exams soon. I'm not in a good mood lately. On the upside, I found a fun new song: Bad Girlfriend by Theory Of A Deadman. A very fun and sexy song, plus one of the awesomest band names I've ever seen.
Tomorrow I have an appointment to get fortnightly contacts, meaning my glasses-wearing days are probably going to be over soon. I feel kinda sad.
I had lots of things I wanted to say, but I can't remember them so they can't be important.
Let's see if I have some depressingly inspiring pictures...
I don't have many, but they did remind me of two things.
First, It's time for my iPod song shuffle...thing. I've decided to do this on the third Saturday of each month until I get bored, forget or get told to stop.

First song: Killing In The Name by Rage Against The Machine. This song is their most famous, which is why I have it on my iPod. It's about rejecting authority and probably the Bush government's war in..wherever. It has the word fuck in it 17 times, once in the word motherfucker. My brother was in high school when it came out and he told me everyone listened to it. It is from a genre called rap metal which has some quite good stuff, including some of Linkin Park's early material.

Second song: The (Shipped) Gold Standard by Fall Out Boy. Um. It has one of my favourite FOB lines, 'I wanna scream I love you from the top of my lungs, but I'm afraid that someone else will hear me.' The main theme is I think escaping, becoming an adult and making your own choices in life instead of blaming everyone else for your problems.

Third song: Sing For The Moment by Eminem. Eminem describes the life of a rap-loving teenager trapped by his circumstances. Probably highly autobiographical. He also talk about his current circumstances and his power as an entertainer. The chorus asks the listener to 'sing for the laugh and sing for the tear.' Its a very powerful and emotional song that I love.

Fourth song: Rip It Up by Jet. A great song with some of my favourite opening lyrics: 'Did you ever get the feeling you were born to lose? Smacked in the face with a silver spoon.' The song talks about..um..stuff I guess. The lyrics are loosely talking about the music industry-very loosely. I think the chorus is telling people to use everything they have to acheive their goals. Let's just say I don't listen to this song for the lyrics.

Fifth song: Through The Fire And The Flames by Dragonforce. An awesome song about a fantastical quest to acheive some great goal. It has awesome guitar playing and a superb video. I was actually hoping this song would come up. I love it. Go listen to it. GO!

Sorry I only have time for five songs this time. I gotta go to bed and finish this post before it hits 12.

I just wanted to be able to say, this is my girlfriend. I wanted to hold someone close and feel them hold me until everything was better again. I wanted to know that there was someone who loved me no matter what. And now it's all screwed up and I don't know how to fix it. I wanted love, understanding and a hand to hold. I still want all that. I love(d) you.

B.I.T.E.

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Howdy once again. I'm meant to be doing homework right now but I've already done some stuff so I think I'm on top of it (I'm not). I saw Iron Man 2 on Sunday. It's not so good I'd see it again or buy the DVD, but its good enough that I'd borrow it out for a movie night or watch it if it was on TV. I've been sick today and yesterday, which meant days off school and lots of homework being done. All that's left of it now is a lingering cough and a sore throat.
Tomorrow I'm going to see my school's production of Little Shop Of Horrors. It's gonna be awesome!
The Tomorrow series is a story about a bunch of teenagers who go away for a holiday and when they come back, Australia has been taken over by hostile forces. I read the first couple of books but got bored. I don't remember them much but I'll try and read them again, as there's a movie coming out.
Thirsty Merc have a new song called Mousetrap Heart. Its pretty good. Taio Cruz's remix of the song Break Your Heart with Ludacris is awesome.
Umm. Pictures!But sometimes, I feel too dead to ever be alive.So from now on, Boredom Is The Enemy.
You are beautiful.
Those times are the worst. Always remember that it's not forever.
Live through today.(I love you)
Fire is the great purifier.
I maintain that The Curse Of The Black Pearl is one of the greatest movies of all time. Go and watch it.
And if you don't be yourself and they like you, was it worth it?
Guess what.
All the time.
It made me strong, then very weak.
I want to leave my mark on everyone I meet.
Always look for shooting stars, and learn to love them too.
I'm going to go to bed and pretend you miss me, that you could love me, until you tell me not to.