Monday, March 14, 2011

A promise is a promise is a promise. Here's another wonderful Cassie tag, created by Erimentha and becoming widespread on the blogs I follow (you guys). I heartily invite you all to do it (it's fun and feels good). The rules are (let me check) you have to include the bolded stuff, link it back to Eri and tag three people you admire. I was "tagged" by Dandalily, which is to say she made me do it. But it is fun, so go ahead.

Abracadabra Wow!
I like boys with a sense of chivalry and girls who trust me.
I like trying to get people who belong together, together.
I like the number 17 written in Roman numerals.
I like how my pencil case has stuff written on it like the cool kids.
I like Melbourne weather, when its 28 degrees and pissing down rain.
I like the Batman.
I like living for myself.
I like songs written other languages that still have really cool sounding lines :P
I like elegance. There really can be elegance in everything.
I like little perfect moments.
I like having friends who care about me.
I like walking around in public barefoot.
I love half smiles.
Today didn't do anything particularly noteworthy, but that's okay.
In some ways, I love everything.Its less, its less of a thing to like,
its less distinct, its less particular
I like things that I like but I love everything. There’s more choice in like
Cos even the worst things have things you love in them
I don’t know what you mean about things I hate

I hate the hate part of the Cassie tag. It depresses me. Maybe this time it won't?
I hate bad goodbyes, even if it's just not seeing a friend off properly after a sleepover.
I hate it when songs I love mention a year, so I have trouble relating to it. Specifically, Golden Years by Bliss n Eso and Summer of '69 by..Bryan Adams?
I hate insulting nicknames.
I hate being betrayed by someone I thought was a friend.
I hate it when I act like a total dick and don't apologise.
I hate endings, in books, movies, friendships, whatever but in a way I know that everything has to end. Except Gobstoppers. That shit lasts forever :P
I hate the piano half of Layla by Derek and Dominoes. The first half is amazing though.
I hate soft chocolate. The best chocolate is cool and hard.

I hate this, wow. . .Sorry.

Man I'm tired. Sort of. Saw Batman Begins and The Dark Knight last night, after Dandalily invited me over out of the blue. Sloth was there. Good fun. I ate all the food though, so I felt fat after :)

Feeling pretty good tonight, though my day was a bit up and down. No pictures this time I think. Now I'm going to read my old Cassie tags and go to sleep. Night!

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

Tryin' to hold these golden years that're flashing by

I'm fine now. I think I needed to let myself out before I pulled back in. And talking with someone who's so disconnected helped. So now I'm just tired. My body, heart, soul and mind are tired.

A friend gave me Season's 1 and 2 of Skins. I've seen the first two eps and its pretty good.
School is hard, like always. Year 11 now means I've got less than two years left. High school is finishing fast.

New music (its been a while);
Golden Years by Bliss n Eso. It makes me a bit sad.
The Hard Road by Hilltop Hoods. It's okay.
The Downeaster Alexa by Billy Joel. An amazing so, check it out.
Young Blood by The Naked and Famous.
Teenage Crime by Adrian Lux.
Check Yes Juliet by We The Kings. I don't like it that much. I spose it's okay.
The Ballad of Mona Lisa by Panic At The Disco. Their new single, not too bad.
It's Not The End Of The World (But I Can See It From Here) by Lostprophets.
Infinite by Eminem. Early Eminem, check it out if you like his stuff.
Mehr and Weidmanns Heil by Rammstein.
Take Over Control by Afrojack.
Invaders Must Die by The Prodigy. Damn good.

I'm gonna be just fine. Everything really is going to be okay.
You know you want to ;) So do it!

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

My promises they will decay

I am depressed. Again. I don't want to say why, for I am ashamed.
So now I cannot bring myself to care. About my friends. My family. My future. My life. My homework. My school. My blog. Everything I'm looking forward to seems bland and pointless right now. My day was...well I've had worse. But I've had so many better.
Because of the people who know me read this blog, I cannot say what I would like to. I considered making a new one, a fresh start that noone knows about, where I can whisper my darkest thoughts aloud. But I can't be bothered to do even that, and nothing is secret on the internet anyway.

I will get better. I always do. But it's hard right now. Some time ago, months or a year, I would live for my dreams at night, waiting for sleep and release. Then, in happier times I slept to make tomorrow come quicker. Now I think I am returning to my dream world.

I have things to say, and no words to say them. Pictures perhaps.

We Heart It depresses me.

You'd think out of one thousand eight hundred and ninety-two songs on my iTunes, there's be one I wanted to listen to.

Tuesday, March 1, 2011


If I can't find truth in sparkling eyes
I'll find it in a friend's painful honesty.

If I can't find hope in whispered words
I'll find it in a baby's laughing smile.

If I can't find love in rose red lips
I'll find it in a brotherly hug.

If I can't find my future in a curved hip
I'll find it out as it unfolds.

If i can't find joy in a lover's kiss
I'll find it in the first flower of Spring.

If I can't find fire in wild passion
I'll find it in the stars at night.

If I can't find happiness with a single girl
I'll find it with the whole wide world.