Thursday, May 27, 2010

Now, bring me that horizon

Before I go to bed, two things. This is Desiderata by Max Ehrmann, written in 1952:

Go placidly amid the noise and haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible without surrender
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others,
even the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.

Avoid loud and aggressive persons,
they are vexations to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain and bitter;
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.

Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs;
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals;
and everywhere life is full of heroism.

Be yourself.
Especially, do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love;
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment
it is as perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.

You are a child of the universe,
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore be at peace with God,
whatever you conceive Him to be,
and whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul.

With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful.
Strive to be happy.

The other thing is, if you're bored and have seven minutes to kill, listen to Everybody's Free (To Wear Sunscreen) on Youtube. I reeaally like it.

"Me, I'm dishonest. And a dishonest man you can always trust to be dishonest—honestly! It's the honest ones you want to watch out for, because you can never predict when they're going to do something incredibly… stupid." Savvy?

"Gentlemen; m'lady. This is the day you will always remember as the day that you almost caught Captain Jack Sparrow!"

Johnny Depp is a brilliant pirate. Go and watch it now.

Today is a winding road that's taking me to places that I didn't want to go

I have 20 followers!!! Is that amazing or what? The music-loving Gabrielle has seen fit to join our motley crew, so (non-alcoholic) drinks all round!
In response to all your comments on my last post: I agree with your comments Lilah. I don't really have any comeback and I don't think one is necessary. And thanks for the compliment. Thanks to Erimentha for your compliments too, though I'm far from the coolest guy :D
s.k.y...people smile in photos because it's expected, because they're meant to and sometimes, because they're happy. I love photos because people never take pictures of me.

So what else is new? Lots of stuff. Most of you are probably having exams soon like me, except you're studying instead of looking on blogger aren't you? I stil have homework, which is very bad, but hey tomorrow is Friday...I'm a good procrastinator dammit.

Alestorm is 'pirate metal' and freaking awesome. listen to the song Keelhauled if you like that kind of thing. which I would say you don't? perhaps Don't Take Your Love Away by Jon Crosby is more your thing.

I'm listening to A Thousand Miles by Vanessa Carlton over and over trying to remember the song lyric I was going to put as the title.

Do you like hugging? Hugging is awesome. I have said before I'm not gay, and I'm not, but I hug all my best mates at least once a day. And they let me because they know how weird I am like that. Of course hugging girls is completely different. I'm not good with the whole platonic-relationship-but-are-best-friends thing...yeah... Hugging is comforting, like just for a second everything is gonna be fine.

Don't you love xkcd? mindless, yet intelligent humour.
I actually enjoyed The Hangover a lot, but I've been hearing a lot of negativity about it lately. Oh well.
But it didn't work. 5 times out of 5.
Do you have a happy place? I realised when I read this that I don't. There's no place in my head, real or imaginary that I can retreat to when the world is too much. No room in my house is sacred, no places to go outside. So, for now, I'm going to design the apartment I want to live in when I'm rich and happy. :)

Because sometimes you just couldn't care less. :)
And I think yours do too. But I can't see through the layers of meaning and I bet you don't even try to.
Some lines from Make Me Wanna Die by The Pretty Reckless. Pretty cool stuff.
Nothing new there. Just a new you.
I hope I am a friend like this. And I hope I get one.
Because it wasn't immediately obvious.
I think this is very clever. And true. And sad.
because no matter how fucked up things are, there is always cake.

I'm so so so so tired. Mentally and physically. Have a great weekend.

Friday, May 21, 2010

A silver chain held up by God's grace.

I have two yes two new followers. The deep s.k.y. and as-yet mysterious Lilah have joined the party. Hope you enjoy yourselves :D
So I had a good day. A maths test I aced, some other fun and shit subjects, pizza after school, library games and then home.
I actually have interesting things to say today. First, please please please pleeeaassse go here and click 'play' on the right to listen to the song. If you really like rate it highly, though you have to make an account so I understand if you're reluctant. Anyway, I think they're awesome and I want you to love them too.
My mum is once again trying to take things out f my room and give them to op shops while I try to stop her. Before she gave up she asked me to go through an old photo album and take the pictures out. It was full of pictures detailing the years between when I was born and when I was five. It was very strange watching myself grow up with each turning page. I enjoyed it though.Uncomplicated, happy, carefree.
Photos are our best link to the past I think. Memories can fade or be twisted, but a photograph can't ignite a whole host of pictures, sounds and smells you thought you'd forgotten. I take far too few photos.

Monday, May 17, 2010

I still remember when all I thought you were eating was my pride.

I'm pretty dumb. I'm feeling a slight chill because I haven't put the heater on, I have a FUCKLOAD of homework I should be doing and you know what? I'm happy. I'm freakin' happy.
I just finished a book called Boy Toy, which is written by the same guy who wrote The Astonishing Adventures Of Fanboy and Goth Girl. It was alright, had a very good ending. I also read a book called..uhh.. I can't remember right now. But it was good. I'm wearing my new contacts and I reckon I might stay up late and do homework.
I'd like to welcome my two new followers, Belle and u.zu.maki. You're both obviously awesome, especially as you brought my follower count up to 17. Which is of course the awesomest number in the universe.

I figured out a temporary solution to a math problem I was working on (You can skip the next paragraph if you like, algebra and basic math). I was trying to figure out an equation for the number of possible rearrangements an x number of lettered word can have. a one letter word has one possible arrangement (I) a two letter two rearrangements (at,ta) a three letter word has six (two,wot,tow,wto,owt,otw) and so on. The half-solution is the number of possible rearrangements is the number of letters times the number of arrangements for the previous number of letters (1 x 2 =2, 2 x 3 = 6, 6 x 4 = 24). This isn't a proper answer though because it means you have to know the number of possible rearrangements for a letter count of one less than the word you want. But enough algebra.

I wish I had a picture to put up, but I don't think so. I'll look later. I kinda need one to segue into something annoyingly cryptic about love, life etc.

EDIT: Found pictures.
Listen to the world and know that in this moment, just for a bit, you are indestructible.
I love growing up sometimes. (click to see it better)
Wait no, that a loss too. How about a nice game of chess?

So what if I turn around and you're right there? And if you aren't? What if someone else is? What then?

Saturday, May 15, 2010

She's mine until the end, you know what she is, no doubt about it she's a bad,bad girlfriend.

Hi y'all. We won the basketball grand final today. Don't worry about congratulations, we're D Grade. We really shoulda been C Grade but if we had been we would have come, like 5th. So yeah, basically we suck. Or I suck and other people can't make up for my shitness. Or not.
So I have lots of homework to do and various other sucky things are happening. We have exams soon. I'm not in a good mood lately. On the upside, I found a fun new song: Bad Girlfriend by Theory Of A Deadman. A very fun and sexy song, plus one of the awesomest band names I've ever seen.
Tomorrow I have an appointment to get fortnightly contacts, meaning my glasses-wearing days are probably going to be over soon. I feel kinda sad.
I had lots of things I wanted to say, but I can't remember them so they can't be important.
Let's see if I have some depressingly inspiring pictures...
I don't have many, but they did remind me of two things.
First, It's time for my iPod song shuffle...thing. I've decided to do this on the third Saturday of each month until I get bored, forget or get told to stop.

First song: Killing In The Name by Rage Against The Machine. This song is their most famous, which is why I have it on my iPod. It's about rejecting authority and probably the Bush government's war in..wherever. It has the word fuck in it 17 times, once in the word motherfucker. My brother was in high school when it came out and he told me everyone listened to it. It is from a genre called rap metal which has some quite good stuff, including some of Linkin Park's early material.

Second song: The (Shipped) Gold Standard by Fall Out Boy. Um. It has one of my favourite FOB lines, 'I wanna scream I love you from the top of my lungs, but I'm afraid that someone else will hear me.' The main theme is I think escaping, becoming an adult and making your own choices in life instead of blaming everyone else for your problems.

Third song: Sing For The Moment by Eminem. Eminem describes the life of a rap-loving teenager trapped by his circumstances. Probably highly autobiographical. He also talk about his current circumstances and his power as an entertainer. The chorus asks the listener to 'sing for the laugh and sing for the tear.' Its a very powerful and emotional song that I love.

Fourth song: Rip It Up by Jet. A great song with some of my favourite opening lyrics: 'Did you ever get the feeling you were born to lose? Smacked in the face with a silver spoon.' The song talks I guess. The lyrics are loosely talking about the music industry-very loosely. I think the chorus is telling people to use everything they have to acheive their goals. Let's just say I don't listen to this song for the lyrics.

Fifth song: Through The Fire And The Flames by Dragonforce. An awesome song about a fantastical quest to acheive some great goal. It has awesome guitar playing and a superb video. I was actually hoping this song would come up. I love it. Go listen to it. GO!

Sorry I only have time for five songs this time. I gotta go to bed and finish this post before it hits 12.

I just wanted to be able to say, this is my girlfriend. I wanted to hold someone close and feel them hold me until everything was better again. I wanted to know that there was someone who loved me no matter what. And now it's all screwed up and I don't know how to fix it. I wanted love, understanding and a hand to hold. I still want all that. I love(d) you.

Tuesday, May 11, 2010


Howdy once again. I'm meant to be doing homework right now but I've already done some stuff so I think I'm on top of it (I'm not). I saw Iron Man 2 on Sunday. It's not so good I'd see it again or buy the DVD, but its good enough that I'd borrow it out for a movie night or watch it if it was on TV. I've been sick today and yesterday, which meant days off school and lots of homework being done. All that's left of it now is a lingering cough and a sore throat.
Tomorrow I'm going to see my school's production of Little Shop Of Horrors. It's gonna be awesome!
The Tomorrow series is a story about a bunch of teenagers who go away for a holiday and when they come back, Australia has been taken over by hostile forces. I read the first couple of books but got bored. I don't remember them much but I'll try and read them again, as there's a movie coming out.
Thirsty Merc have a new song called Mousetrap Heart. Its pretty good. Taio Cruz's remix of the song Break Your Heart with Ludacris is awesome.
Umm. Pictures!But sometimes, I feel too dead to ever be alive.So from now on, Boredom Is The Enemy.
You are beautiful.
Those times are the worst. Always remember that it's not forever.
Live through today.(I love you)
Fire is the great purifier.
I maintain that The Curse Of The Black Pearl is one of the greatest movies of all time. Go and watch it.
And if you don't be yourself and they like you, was it worth it?
Guess what.
All the time.
It made me strong, then very weak.
I want to leave my mark on everyone I meet.
Always look for shooting stars, and learn to love them too.
I'm going to go to bed and pretend you miss me, that you could love me, until you tell me not to.

Saturday, May 8, 2010

The stars lean down to kiss you, and I lie awake and miss you.

Right now I'm following the Sweet blogger tag back through time to see who made it. Damn didn't work. One of the links was invalid. OK, so I've been given the Sweet Blogger award by the beautiful Camelgirl. I have to..
*give this award to 10 sweet and friendly bloggers,
*make a post about the award including the picture and mention the person who gave it to you,
*put the award on your blog,
*let your nominated 10 know you've awarded them by leaving a comment!

Let's see. I give this to: Smileyfreak, Sir Miffington Quack Quack, Catherine, Cheshire and Selfish, P.s. I am Me, Elfie, Smorginator aaand Athena.

So since I can't find out the real history of this award, let's make one up
The Sweet Blogger Award was made by the great blogger god Blogger God to entertain the masses. The tag spread throughout the blogosphere until everyone had one. Then the fighting started. Two factions emerged, the first believing that the tag was for fun and everyone should be able to get one, the others believing it should only be granted to those worthy of the Blogger God's blessing. Furthermore, the blogosphere shattered into pieces, as everyone had different ideas as to what was meant to be written about for the tag. Eventually, after a major insult war and three cyber deaths, Blogger God stepped in and quelled the riots, wiping the minds of all but a select few of their memories of the blog war. The Sweet Blogger Award is currently a memorial to those who died, created by those who retained their memories. After the war was over the Blogger God declared (s)He would never again interact with the public and wiped its blog.

That was fun. Vanilla Twilight by Owl City is an AWESOME song. If I was feeling like an asshole I'd say its music video was shit but its not. Eminem has a new album coming out called Recovery, the first single is Not Afraid - it's pretty good. Airplanes Part 2 featuring Eminem is even better than the first part and Hayley Williams sings an awesome chorus.

I haven't said I don't love you anymore. And I never said I still loved her.

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

Should I confess that you never got the best from me?

I'm feeling good...though I probably shouldn't be. I was just messed up. Sometimes I think I give to much of myself to others. Och well. Yesterday I went to this Career's night thing, so it very inspirational. Can't wait for uni. I spent most of Sunday looking up lots of songs by Paramore and Bullet For My Valentine. They're both awesome. So right now I'm listening to Paramore's song Ignorance and next will be crushcrushcrush, then Waking The Demon by BFMV. I really should be doing homework :(. I won't take much longer.
Oh yeah. I got a signed copy of Amy Meredith's single Lying!! I had to pay 5.50 but it was in phone credit and I have plenty of that. Vodafone is very good like that. so yeah I'll put up a picture later..or now. I'm hoping that if I keep it in mint condition that I'll be able to sell it for thousands when they're ultra-famous. So listen to it and love it!
'Rock and roll baby. Don't you know that we're alone now.'
Random things.

P.S. Skinny Little Bitch by Hole is awesome alternative rock and Pour Some Sugar On Me by Def Leppard is awesome hard rock. Listen if you like that kinda stuff. And swearing. And sex. And everything else you'd expect from my music tastes. Laters!

Sunday, May 2, 2010

Ignorance is your new best friend

All I wanted was a hand to hold.
Someone to kiss goodnight.
Something to wake up next to.
Someone to make me feel alive.
Someone I could spend an hour with and never say a single word.
Someone who would love me.

Instead, I'm bawling my eyes out to my dad about my PIECE OF SHIT homework.
I am depressed.

And now I'm trying to think of a suitable title. Life is a fucking joke.