Wednesday, June 20, 2012

Dependence and Relationships.

And now for something completely different


  1. not being influenced or controlled by others in matters of opinion,conduct, etc.; being able to think or act for oneself
  2. not being subject to another's authority or jurisdiction;autonomous; free
  3. being uninfluenced by the thought or action of others
  4. not dependent; not depending or contingent upon something else for existence, operation, etc.
  5. not being reliant on another or others for aid or support.

Financial Independence
  1. the state of having sufficient personal wealth to live indefinitely without having to work actively for basic necessities.
  2. the ability to manage your money in such away that you have sufficient funds to live your chosen lifestyle without assistance from others.
  3. To be able to meet all current and future cash outflows with passive cash inflows.

Emotional Independence
  1. To not be reliant on the opinions and emotions of others to be happy; to not allow others to influence one's emotional state.


I noticed a few weeks ago that you can't be taught how to be in a relationship, or how to relate to people. I say noticed, because I think I always kinda knew it, but I never actually realised it. If you know what I mean (and you should, you're smart aren't you?). Relationships, especially intimate ones, are things you have to work out on your own. And as you do, you find out more about yourself. From my relationships I think I've learned a few things about myself. I'm passionate and loving, but often superficial. I'm jealous and I don't bond with people readily. I'm trusting, but if you break my trust I'm slow to forgive. I can be manipulative if I let my self stop caring. I'm not very loyal and I apologise too much. I complain too much. I'm bad at understanding people. I take sides easily, but I don't often think badly of people.

I realised (properly realised, not just noticed) that I have better friends than I thought. I spoke to a guy at school yesterday, idly complaining about my general lack of direction, motivation or prospects. His reply was not what I expected. Instead of making a general statement about looking at the positives or some crap, as I am accustomed to, he made a sincere and thoughtful response that I didn't know how to answer. What he said itself wasn't what amazed me, but the fact that he actually went to the trouble of listening to me complaining and thought about what I said for more than the time it took to change the subject. In this fast-track brave new world, the fact that he stopped to think seems important.

This is my 199th post. I wanted to do something special for my 200th, but I can't think of one. Finally, I wanted to include an amazing quote from the book Magician by Raymond E. Feist. Unfortunately, I didn't note the page when I read it, and the thing's over 800 pages long. You should go read it, it's an amazing book. If I find the quote again it's going straight up here.

Found it. The internet is a wonderful place.

"There are many ways to love someone. Sometimes we want love so much, we're not too choosy about who we love. Other times, we make love such a pure and noble thing, no poor human can ever meet our vision. But for the most part, love is a recognition, an opportunity to say, "There is something about you I cherish." It doesn't entail marriage, or even physical love. There's love of parents, love of city or nation, love of life, and love of people. All different, all love."
-Raymond E. Feist, Magician. p. 438, 5th Ed.

Sweet dreams.

Monday, June 11, 2012

Took eighteen years to get this far.

Today's my birthday!*waves flag*
I'm eighteen, so in honour of this momentous day, you get this song.
Tada! It's Alice Cooper! You may remember him from such songs as "Poison" "School's Out" and "Department of Youth".

So anyway, I got for a present: Money, stamps from 1987, coins from 1982, a jacket, a shirt, a couple of weird foreign drinks as a joke, Riot Points, some face scrub kit (thanks Mum, real flattering), a book to write lists in and a badass briefcase.
Aaaaaand yeah. Honestly I don't feel any different from yesterday, except a bit more tired. Eighteen just means more responsibility I don't want/can't handle.

And now I'm off to do some actual revision for once. Toodles.

Friday, June 8, 2012

I don't keep many promises.

Argh I don't know what to say! Or where to start. I had a good day I've decided. Everyone's freaking out about exams it seems, and I am too, but at least my IT teacher's given me an extension for my IT SAC. I couldn't focus on either because I was worried about the other (or at least that's my excuse). Not to mention the English and Lit practise SACs I should have done and the Maths I'm horribly behind in. But keeping positive...
Its been a pretty messy week. My room needs a clean, but at least I'm not going to die...I think.
So what's new. My hair's still long, my clothes are still cheap and my motivation is still (pretty) abysmal. But keeping positive...
I was really tired today for some reason, so hopefully I can get some sleep tonight.
Umm. I had a day off school, but went anyway to talk to my IT teacher and try and get some work done. But he wasn't there so I had to email him - which is appropriate I guess, but I didn't want to for some reason :S
I really wanna watch Tangled again. Oh, I saw Tangled. And Mulan. And Mulan 2, Aladdin and Aladdin 2 (not all in one day silly). I went on a kind of Disney binge :D. And a Disney music binge. The number of times I've heard "Prince Ali" today..

Robin Williams is a brilliant actor. Just incredible.
What else. I played games (being me) and had noodles for dinner, which I haven't had in aaaages.

Tangled is awesome.
Man I'm tired. This hasn't been a very interesting post. I noticed that I forgot to add tags to my last few posts, so I might do that before bed. Then tomorrow, basketball (maybe) and revision! Fun!
So yeah.

Oh. And my 18th birthday is in a few days. I.. well, I don't really care. I'm not having a party, because I'm not a party person, but I'll get together a few guys for a birthday chill-out after exams. That's good enough for me I think.
So that's it from me until my Psych exam is over.
Oh, and this tune is just... awesome. I love it. You have to listen to the bit after 1:40 though -.-.

Oh and guys, I've decided. I want a castle!