Withdrawal

I need my drug.

Philosophy?

The following was on the last page of one of my philosophy handouts.

CAPITALISM

You have two cows. You sell one and buy a bull.

FASCISM

You have two cows. the government takes both, hires you to take care of them and sells you the milk.

PURE COMMUNISM

You have two cows. Your neighbours help you take care of them and you all share the milk.

RUSSIAN COMMUNISM

You have two cows. You have to take care of them but the government takes all the milk.

DICTATORSHIP

You have two cows. The government takes both and shoots you.

SINGAPOREAN DEMOCRACY

You have two cows. The government fines you for keeping two unlicensed animals in an apartment.

MILITARISM

You have two cows. The government takes both and drafts you.

PURE DEMOCRACY

You have two cows. Your neighbours decide who gets the milk.

REPRESENTATIVE DEMOCRACY

You have two cows. Your neighbours pick someone to tell you who gets the milk.

AMERICAN DEMOCRACY

The government promises to give you two cows if you vote for it. After the election, the president is impeached for speculating in cow futures. The press dubs the affair "Cowgate".

BRITISH DEMOCRACY

You have two cows. You feed them sheep brains and they go mad. The government doesn't do anything.

BUREAUCRACY

You have two cows. At first the government regulates what you can feed them and when you can milk them. Then it pays you not to milk them. After that it takes both, shoots one, milks the other and pours the milk down the drain. Then it requires you to fill out forms to account for the missing cows.

SURREALISM

You have two giraffes. The government requires you to take harmonica lessons.

After reading the last one I spent five minutes in class laughing uncontrollably while everyone gave me funny looks and the teacher pretended not to notice.

And pictures..

I NEED this USB.

It's true.

It's funny that you mentioned creative writing..

So..
I had a sub for science and no book to read so I wrote a poem

Leave blue roses on my grave,

In memory of the one you couldn't save.

In the corner,of a lost and secret cave,

Leave blue roses on my grave.

Remember me as `was the one.'

Remember me as `next to none.'

Remember me as `we're not done.'

Remeber me as `was the one.'

Forget me on your wedding night,

Forget about knowing who was right,

Love the one who holds you tight,

And forget me on your wedding night.

I'm not totally happy with it, but it's good enough.

Hope you liked it.

First, we take Manhattan / Then, we take Berlin

So..
Finally. I've been wanting to post for ages. The reason I couldn't is because my download limit was almost gone, and if we go over it gets sooo slooow. So I was waiting for the weekend when I could use the computer in the morning when the download doesn't count. Unfortunately, last night my dad used up the last of the download so now my computer is slooooooooooow. Very frustrating.
But anyway. First off, WELCOME MY TWO NEW FOLLOWERS! I have seven now. SEVEN. well, two are the same person but..SEVEN. I'm quite pleased as you can see.
We won basketball today. FINALLY. We've lost around 5 times in a row now. Last week was particularly frustrating. I didn't really enjoy it today though. I played really badly.
I started listening to Leonard Cohen (awesome 70+ Canadian singer) a few days ago. My parents have two albums of his, one is a bunch of covers and the other is his greatest hits sort of. My favourites right now are 'First We Take Manhattan' and 'Take This Waltz'. I also got recommended this awesome song called 'Who Says' by John Mayer (thanks Camelgirl).
I got Linkin Park's first album Hybrid Theory yesterday and I'm probably going to get Muse's new album tomorrow or next weekend. I want to get 'Oh My God' by Lily Allen and the Tik Tok Parody by The Midnight Beast. They're goood.
Yesterday I participated in the Red Cross Calling Appeal. Basically, every year on February 26 the whole of Year 10 has to stand on a street corner for two hours asking for donations.
The first hour and a half weren't that bad, but the last 30 minutes was excruciating. Afterwards I went with a friend to JB Hi Fi (where I got Hybrid Theory) then took the train home, had a surprise meeting with some kids from my old school, and went to the library with them. It was fun :).
I have a new computer! Because the old one died, my parents bought a new one two days ago. It's good, but kind of annoying to get used to. I'm also getting a new laptop, because my the one I've got now is around ten years old and is frankly a piece of shit (excuse my French).
I think I have some other stuff to say, but I forget. I'll post when I remember.
There's a friend of mine at school who keeps walking into class or comes back into a conversation with " It's OK everyone. I'm here.".. so yeah, bit of trivia for you.
Thanks to my two new followers.
More soon!

Come, sit down and warm your hands while my heart burns.

So..
I can't explain it properly. It was...well, I suppose being tickled is a good simile. It was extreme torment, but at the same time there was immense pleasure. It happened suddenly, and instead of laughing my, insides squirmed and rocked, and a voice in my head said, why not? But I knew why not, and the feeling faded, leaving behind a sweet tasting memory.

one thousand one hundred and forty seven steps.

So..
HI! Umm. You know what's good? Bad days that end well. You know whats better? Good days that go bad, but get good again. Today was like that. I woke up okay, then went to Camelgirl's house, so things got better, then I had to leave to play basketball and we played SO badly. I'm still quite angry.
We were playing against a team of five, who had no subs, and we led for around 95% of the game. We were up by about 7 at half time, then it was equal at around 3/4 time. We drew ahead again, but in literally the last minute they caught up and beat us by two points (1 goal = 2 points).
I was so furious, especially since I'd been subbed of in the last 2 minutes and couldn't do anything.
So when we left I got my dad to drop me off at a local park which had a crappy ring so I could cool off for a bit. I then walked home (I counted 1147 steps from a random point to the front door), had a shower and read my blog comments, which cheered me up. So now I'm feeling pretty good. Had a meat pie for dinner, and going to have an apple thing for dessert :).

On to other things. Sabine Cara asked if I'm gay. I'm not gay, though I have been called that many times by different people, mostly because I'm very touchy-feely with my mates. I don't object to being called gay though, as I don't find anything particularly wrong with being homosexual. There are two gay guys who live down the end of my street who are two of the nicest people I know.

Um..I had something else to say.. Oh. I don't use pictures very much because I don't usually go looking for them, but I will try to include them more often:D.
I foolishly attempted to draw the above picture for my drawing class. Needless to say, my version is terrible. I'm looking forward to next term though, because I have an idea of what my major piece is going to be and I can't wait to do it.

Umm.. there was one more thing.. Oh yeah. To any future people checking out my blog, I realise the first 8 or so are..well pretty depressing. Sorry about that. I'd change or delete them, but I don't like messing with previous posts. So yeah, just wanna let you know I'm not always that bad.


And here's the Looking For Alaska that started me off on my John Green craze.

Looking For Alaska

So..
I just realised I mentioned Looking For Alaska in my last post, but I haven't actually said anything about it before. Looking For Alaska is this awesome book I found out about when I found a quote from it on We Heart It. I didn't expect to find it in my school library, but it was, so I borrowed it.Its quite a sad story, but i really liked it.
My mum found my ring, so I'm got it on my little finger. Iss so pwetty. The We Heart It pictures I wanted to put up are on my normal computer, so i can't get to them because its broken. *tear*

Ride On.

So..
Much to talk about. I have a ring with a skull on it, being the emogoth I apparently am. The funny part is that my grandma gave it to me, which is not a typical grandparent to grandchild present as far as I'm aware. I was wearing it on my ring finger, but it was tight, hard to get off and doing weird things to the patch of skin under it. Now I've left it somewhere and I don't know where. Oh well. I borrowed this book called Paper Towns by the same guy who wrote Looking For Alaska - John Green. He's become my favourite writer, but he's only written three books so far *tear*. It was a good book. :D
I have a new follower (Sabine Cara) who will probably run away very quickly once she 1. finds out I only know a few Lily Allen songs 2. reads some more of my posts and 3. realises I'm mad. Och well.
I also got a tag from Camelgirl for Cassie's therapy video. Again :o .
I don't mind :D. I'm gonna do it again and see if any of my answers are the same as last time.
Now let's see..

Abracadabra, Wow!
I like boys with a sense of humour and big dreams and girls with big dreams and a sense of humour.
I like people who accept my weirdness as an essential part of me.
I like getting answers to tricky questions first.
I like reading doomed love stories. (John Green again[and Shakespeare])
I like staying up late at night, talking.
I liked how things used to be.

I like rearranging words to see if they spell anything else.

I like being needed.

I like doing silly things with my friends to pass the time.

I like it when I can think of things I like that aren't weird or depressing.:D

I like it when I truly believe I can reach my dreams.

I like the characters in stories are unconventional, but inspirational.
I love laughing simply because I can and there's a reason to.
Today I laughed uncontrollably because the teacher said 'Six', watched the Zefferelli version of Romeo and Juliet (the best PG film of all time), got the answer to a logic problem first, even though I wasn't even paying attention, I was reading then I looked up, found out what they were talking about and got the answer instantly.

In some ways, I love everything.
Its less, its less of a thing to like, its less distinct, its less particular
I like things that I like but I love everything
There’s more choice in like
Cos even the worst things have things you love in them
I don’t know what you mean about things I hate
I hate it when I wake up in the middle of a good dream.

I hate people who think there's something wrong with me, just because I'm unconventional.

I hate it when I don't understand what I did wrong.

I hate it when I get my hopes up, then see them crushed, or pushed aside.
I hate how growing up changes people, including me.
I hate that I'm losing my old friends, and I don't care enough to try.

I hate being alone but in a way, sometimes it can be useful.
I hate my cynical, nihilistic side
I hate this, wow. . .
Sorry.

Well now. This is called the act of - wait. Oops wrong place...
Hmm. What else is new? Oh, for almost all of yesterday I had the song Its Too Late by Evermore stuck in my head. It was good. It's actually a pretty sad song, but it kept me uplifted for some reason. I'm glad it did though.
I'm actually feeling quite good after writing that, which surprises me. Writing down what I'm thinking and feeling is a kind of release I suppose.
I also borrowed and read a book called The Jester by James Patterson and.. Someone Gross. As in, I borrowed it in the morning and read it through the day, and finished it a few minutes after I got home. I'm a fast reader.
Umm. OH! I know! I bought the Master Of Puppets album from a market person. It cost me 2 bucks and plays fine, though the cover is a bit old. I found a new song I like on it called Welcome Home (Sanitarium). The opening lines are very good.

Welcome to where time stands still,
Where no-one leaves and no-one will.

And later..

Sleep my friend and you will see,
The dream is my reality.

And the chorus..

Sanitarium.
Leave me be.
Sanitarium.
Just leave me alone.

Thats all for now. I post again soon though, I want to put up some weheartit stuff I found.

What can I say? I'm a hopeless romantic

So..
Ahh, Valentine's day. I could do a long depressing rant about how pointless/useless/depressing it is, but really, why should I? I'm in a good mood, and I refuse to let a special holiday centered on love get me down. Suffice to say, the only reason I've been looking forward to today was to write this post. Which is a good reason. IT IS!
In other news, my usual computer is broken so I'm on my slow crappy one. We might be getting a new one though, so its all good. It's been two weeks of school already, and I'm finding it rather dull. Still it keeps me active and I kinda enjoy hanging out with everyone. Also, I finally got Franz Ferdinand's song Take Me Out, after forgetting a million times. It has one of my favourite first verses of all time:

So if you're lonely,
You know I'm here,
Waiting for you.
I'm just a crosshair,
I'm just a shot,
Away from you.

And if you leave here,
You leave me broken,
Shattered, a lie.
I'm just a crosshair,
I'm just a shot,
and then we can die.

My number one favourite first verses is probably Vermilion by Slipknot, which I think I've talked about :

She seems dressed in all the rings,
Of past fatalities.
So fragile yet so devious,
She continues to see it.
Climatic hands that press,
Her temples and my chest.
Enter the night that she came home.
Forever.

Oh (She's the only one that makes me sad)

She is everything and more,
The solemn, hypnotic,
My Dahlia, bathed in possession.
She is home to me.

I get nervous, perverse,
When I see her it's worse,
But the stress is astounding,
it's now or never she's coming home.
Forever.

In fact, I think all the verses of Vermilion are awesome, but I won't put them down. It's not so much the words themselves, the singer's voice is what makes it really good.
Fun Fact: Whenever Schism by Tool comes on my iPod, I automatically think to answer my mobile for a second, because its my ringtone.

Valentine's Day by Linkin Park:
My insides all turned to ash,
So slow.
and blew away as I collapse,
So cold.
A black wind took them away,
From sight.
And held the darkness over day,
That night.
And the clouds above moved closer.
Looking so dissatisfied.
But the heartless wind kept blowing, blowing.
I used to be my own protection,
But not now.
Cause my path has lost direction,
Somehow.
A black wind took you away,
From sight.
And held the darkness over day,
That night.
And the clouds above moved closer.
Looking so dissatisfied.
And the ground below grew colder,
As they put you down inside.
But the heartless wind kept blowing,
Blowing.

So now you're gone,
and I was wrong,
I never knew what it was like,
To be alone,
On a Valentine's Day,
On a Valentine's Day,
On a Valentine's Day,
On a Valentine's Day,
On a Valentine's Day,
(I used to be my own protection)
On a Valentine's Day,
(But not now)
On a Valentine's Day,
(Cause my mind has lost direction)
On a Valentine's Day,
(Somehow)
On a Valentine's Day,
(I used to be my own protection)
On a Valentine's Day,
(But not now)
On a Valentine's Day,
(Cause my mind has lost direction)
On a Valentine's Day,
(Somehow)

Hope you had a good Valentine's Day.

It was not your fault but mine.

So..
Howdy. Schools back! I'm actually enjoying it because we've been getting out early and I haven't got any homework yet so the pressure and worry haven't sunk in yet.:)
I got tagged awhile ago for 'Happy 101 award'. It's ten things that make me happy and I have to have done one of them today. Easy right?
1. Doing my best at basketball and knowing I helped my team.
2. Being with good friends, talking about nothing important, without anything to worry about.
3. Drinking slurpees, especially with friends.
4. Telling jokes only I get.
5. Getting good marks for something I worked really hard for.
6. Waking up after a good dream I can remember.
7. Listening to good music I can zone out to.
8. Reading, listening to or watching something that makes me laugh.
9. Weirding people out.
10. Writing or drawing random things.

In other news, I added Mumford & Sons' 'The Cave' and 'Little Lion Man' to my iPod along with a bunch or Iron Maiden Jason Derulo's 'In My Head' and Lily Allen's 'Back To The Start'.
Mmm. Doonuuts. Ice-cream's better though.:D